I carried a heart wrapped with barbed wire for years. I would tell myself repeatedly that I would not allow my heart to feel pain anymore, so I wrapped it up letting just enough love in to get me by. Since allowing barbed wire to be wrapped was not the essences of my spirit; life gave me more situations and circumstances that would later influence me to capitulate to God’s demand. I walked around with an S on my chest, thinking I was winning against those who wronged me and life.
When life left me, I found out that I needed to love to receive what I needed back. Having barbed wire across my heart placed limitations on my mind, body, and soul, but it was also created as a protection for me from experiencing that same hurt I felt previously. I didn’t have room to love God, myself, and others the way I needed too appropriately. I was much like the others in
Psalms 10:6 (CEV) “In their hearts they say, nothing can hurt us! We’ll always be happy and free from trouble.”
Holding on to this thought pattern in my perspective at that moment was acceptable because everyone in my family believed it and everyone around me was doing it. I needed validation to keep this heart wrapped up with barbed wire to let me know that how I was feeling was validated. The truth was my heart did need validation, but it was not validation from people it needed but God.
A cardiac muscle also known as the heart happens to be one of the strongest muscles in the body. The heart carries the commitment of pumping blood and circulating the blood throughout the body. While the blood flows throughout the body, the blood pass through antibodies, hormones, nutrients, breakdown products, and gases from the tissues. The best characteristic of the heart is its pumping action, and the rhythm of the contraction when the heart beats. When the soul is not clean, the body began to look like what the soul is.
1Thessalonians 5:23 (CEV) says “I pray that God, who gives peace, will make you completely holy. And may your spirit, soul, and body be kept healthy and faultless until our Lord Jesus Christ returns.”
When the heart is damaging in the body, the body begins to weaken. When the heart of the spirit is damaging, the spirit begins to weaken. Both results tend to function as one affecting one another. The spiritual meaning of the body’s heart issues is dealing with life through anger.
This means that healing your spirit from anger will heal your body from its heart issues. When the heart is wounded nothing else in your life can prosper in the way God showed you it could be because anything you have now involves your heart to be the main investment to the deal God gave you. When the heart is limited everything in your life will be limited and delayed also.
Since the heart plays an important role in keeping the body regulating in the proper functioning, it is ideal to keep the heart healthy always. Many of us tend to give our heart to things that hold no value spiritually such as money, cars, clothes, bills, bank accounts, and ETC. If it is not material possessions, then it is people who failed us in ways we never imagined. It could be death of love ones and relationships lost. It could also be secrets that taunted our vision of the world, lies that we were forced to believe in, or other people’s action not matching up to our expectations in life.
When the heart of the soul needs cleansing, the heart of the body will not be able to function in its proper functioning. Since my heart was wrapped with barbed wire spiritually; my real heart had begun to not function with the proper rhythm it needed to keep everything flowing as it should. My hormones were imbalanced and I was not getting the proper nutrients to keep my body centered. I began to develop hormonal acne, which is a sign of not loving myself spiritually.
Giving your heart to others and things that did not deserve it can leave us wounded. Wounded in a way where we refuse to feel that same level of hurt again. When a heart experiences to many jabs and stabs, an individual will begin to wrap barred wire around their heart. Keeping the heart limited from its natural function and its proper rhythm allows the heart to lose its purpose and promise to the body. Wrapping the heart with barbed wire prevents others from entering in and it stops us from experiencing the true meaning of love God created. Barbed wire is a metaphor for a cold heart of the spirit.
Chakra is Indian thought that centers the spiritual powers in the human body, which there are seven of them. Much like the body, the heart chakra is the center of all chakras. The root Chakra which is for survival. The sacral carries the sexuality and creativity of the spirit. The solar plexus carries personal power and identity of the spirit. The throat chakra carries the truth speech of the spirit. The third eye carries the intuition and inner knowing of the spirit. The crown chakra is essences of spirituality. When the heart chakra is imbalanced it throws all the other energies off, which reveals you have placed barred wired all around your heart.
Signs of a barbed-wired heart are:
- Being demanding, jealous, possessive, co-dependent and arrogant.
- Trying your best to please others most of the time.
- Boundaries among others are not clear to others.
- You are unable to say no to others.
- You sacrifice too much of yourself for others’ situations and circumstances.
- Your personality is not consistent and you may come across as forgetful.
- You have become anti-social, cold, critical, judgmental, intolerant, and withdrawn.
- You have become lonely and depressed.
- You have a hard time keeping healthy relationships due to lack of trust.
- You have a fear of true intimacy.
- You are bitter and selfish.
- You come across as the passive-aggressive type of person.
Proverbs 23:26 (KJV) says,” My son, give me your heart, and let your eyes observe my ways. I made the choice to give my life to God, but I did not know that I had to give my heart also to him. I knew I was supposed to love him with all my heart, in which I did the best I could.
God allowed the circumstances and situations to get me on my knees speaking words like
Psalms 51:10 (KJV), “Create in me a clean heart, O God; and renew a right spirit within me.”
I thought if I did God’s duty of doing good then my heart would change.I thought I was doing what Proverbs 4:23 (NIV), “Above all else, guard your heart, for everything you do flows from it.” I wanted to be good so bad that I took matters into my own hands being demanding, jealous, and arrogant to hide my faults from others.
I was not able to set clear boundaries among others because I was too afraid that they would not see my worth. I was growing co-dependent on others validation of who I was. I felt like a martyr in my family and career to other people’s situation because I was trying to constantly prove myself. In result, I grew anti-social, cold, judgmental, intolerant of people, and withdrawn. I also grew lonely and depressed. I was truly fearful of intimacy because I did not want to feel that hurt again. I grew bitter and selfish due to my past. I did not know that giving God my heart and not people would really do what
Philippians 4:7 says, “And the peace of God, which transcends all understanding, will guard your hearts and your minds in Christ Jesus.”
I am glad he waited patiently for me until I was ready to remove the barbed wire from across my heart. God’s Grace is everything to me.