Excitement begins to fill the heart with joy and then anxiousness begins to creep in to your heart when a new and exciting phenomenon has entered into your life. Anxiousness allows you to run–speaking too soon. It’s in that moment, when it’s always best to pause and listen to what excitement is trying to tell you rather than to react right away.
I would coincide my feeling of excitement with anxiousness all the time. Excitement is a great feeling of eagerness and enthusiasts about a point in time. Anxiousness is a mental state of distress or uneasiness when operating in fear.
Have you ever had something great happen to you or a great idea; and the first thought you had was to run and tell someone the great thing(s) you experienced? The response you receive is either blah, dry, or negative? It’s in that moment that you begin to recognize that maybe it was best to keep what you had for yourself and not for others.
I cannot speak for you, but for myself, I would pursuit to be celebrated for my accomplishments or successes in life. Most of the time, I ended up celebrating by myself for my successes and accomplishments. I experienced this phase in my life on several different occasions with hope that I would find someone happy for myself as much as I was. That was not the case! I discovered that I was searching for a viewpoint that was not realistic. God began to speak to me about the power of silence.
Proverbs 29:11 ESV, “A fool gives full vent to his spirit, but a wise man quietly holds it back.”
Due to my desperation of feeling wanted or needed, I would use my mouth to express everything I was feeling and what I was experiencing in life. I would also feel obligated to answer questions that others were asking acting inquisitive. I guess, you could say my mouth was my outlet. I would tell all of my dreams and aspirations to others even strangers when I was in a very vulnerable phase in my life. I was in such desperation to express myself with hope of receiving guidance and compassion in return.
I began to develop certainty in others that I was not supposed too. It was not the fact that the people were not trustworthy, but they could not be trusted with the information that God had given me. Those were two totally different circumstances I had to take in to consideration, which assisted me with healing from certain occurences that appeared in my life.
Opening my mouth too soon allowed me to face spiritual warfare in places that begin due to living in desperation and carelessness about God’s word to self. I shared things that were only meant for God and self. I allowed others to know about the plan upon my life. Had I listen to scripture:
James 1:19 ESV,”Know this, my beloved brothers: let every person be quick to hear, slow to speak, slow to anger.”
It would have saved me a lot of trouble. In reality, I was slow to listening. In fact, I would listen to what was considered to be worthy. I was quick to speak because my opinion and feelings mattered, and I needed to let others know that. I was quick to become angry when I did not get my way,or when I was ignored by others when expressing myself.
Ephesians 6:11 NIV, “Put on the full armor of God, so that you can take your stand against the devil’s schemes.
It was now time for me to put my armor on to pray to God about my mouth because I was tired of allowing the enemy to steal my joy, peace, and trust in God’s word and higher self.
Ecclesiastes 3:7 ESV, “a time to tear, and a time to sew; a time to keep silence, and a time to speak.”
I began to trust God’s timing about when it was necessary to celebrate with others and when it is vital for me to celebrate myself. Instead of looking for praise from others for my work. I began to praise God more for allowing me to do what it was he allowed me to do. When you praise God’s name blessings began to fall down upon you, which is his way of celebrating you. I began to understand that what we carry in our heart flows out of our mouth. I mentioned before that I was broken terribly within; in which everything within that was broken flowed out of my mouth.
I decided it was time to do what Proverbs 4:23 | NIV says,” Above all else, guard your heart, for everything you do flows from it.
Everyone did not deserve the opportunity to hear what was going on in my life or heart! It was meant for God only to know the true inside story of my life. He is the one that created me, so certain facts are best left undisclosed than expressed to everyone else.
Once, I began to listen to God and not listen to my own understanding of handling things. I began to discover that what Psalm 32:7 | NIV states ,“ You are my hiding place; you will protect me from trouble and surround me with songs of deliverance.
The interesting things is that God truly did just what Psalms 32:7 says above. The power of silence was saving me from a lot of headaches and unnecessary stress I did not want again in my life. I wanted peace, joy, kindness, and protection overall. If I wanted to have that in my life then it was time for me to act like it ;so that the Universe could respond to my true desires. The Universe is meant to respond to our desires in life. What you put out in this world is what you receive back. I decided to go after those four attributes in order to see them in front of me.
Patience is key, which was truly hard for me especially in learning the lesson of the power of silence. It was an real life struggle that allowed me to grow spiritually, mentally, and emotionally. Keeping information to myself, I felt like I was alone. I was then reminded that I wasn’t alone. God had my back!
Lamentations 3:26-30 CEV, “It is good to wait patiently for the Lord to save us. When we are young, it is good to struggle hard and to sit silently alone, if this is what the Lord intends. Being rubbed in the dirt can teach us a lesson; we can also learn from insults and hard knocks.”
Yes, it was from those insults and hard knocks that I learned the true way of protecting what was mine and that everyone should not have access to my dreams, plans, and aspirations in life. Somethings should be kept between me, myself, I , and God.
Philippians 4:11-12 ESV,” Not that I am speaking of being in need, for I have learned in whatever situation I am to be content. I know how to be brought low, and I know how to abound. In any and every circumstance, I have learned the secret of facing plenty and hunger, abundance and need.”
I have arrived at a point in my life, where I am learning to give myself credit for all the hard work I was able to accomplish with God’s will. There is much room for excitement in my life, but there’s no room for allowing anxiousness to steal my joy by underestimating the power of silence and protecting what’s mine.