Have you ever feared of being broke that you ended up buying more than you need? How about spending more than you can afford with your credit cards? Do you shop based on what appeals to the eye? Are you living paycheck to paycheck? Are you a responsible spender? Do you overwork yourself just to sustain the material possessions for your lifestyle? If you answer yes to these questions than I would say you are suffering from the fear of lack and loss. I always had my mind on my money and money was on my mind (Snoop Dogg). This is a very stressful mindset to have because I could never appreciate what was in front of me.
The fear of lack and loss is a fearful concept that leads to you believe that what you have now is not enough; which leads you with dissatisfaction once you gain something. The concept leads you with a feeling that more money, more food, more clothes, more cars, etc. are necessary. This concept can be attached to your ego, reputation, or need to please others, in which all add toxicity to your life. Thoughts that feed off this concept will tell you to buy what appeals to your eye because it is cute, fancy, different, or trendy. You buy while recognizing you cannot afford it, but the fear of lack and loss always comes in pushing you to buy what you know you will have to pay for later (literally).
There were times when I would buy more because I was afraid of losing anything in my presence. because I told myself over and over that good things do not last long. More of something is better than a little of something. I had a big fear of lack and loss, where I would be terrified to lose anything and afraid of lacking anything I felt was necessary. I had an immature belief that if I had more than I would attract more people, which seemed good to me at the time. I was not aware that more people would lead to more toxicity and stress within my life.
I would worry about my paycheck every other week because I was hoping I had enough for bills and other debts. I was overworked and in deep debt. The more I worked; the more I felt I needed to buy something. Budgeting was never a part of future goals because I felt I had credit cards who could help me when an emergency would arise. I also noticed that when an emergency did not arrive, I began to create emergencies that lead to more debt.
This resulted in me spending more money on fast food because I did not feel like cooking; more clothes because I could not find anything to wear, and more debt because I was too lazy to budget my money. Budgeting to me was like a punishment, I felt I worked too hard to budget my money, and I deserved to treat myself due to my hard work. I felt I deserved to spend every penny there was. I would like to lie and tell you all that things got better before they got worst, but it was the opposite. Of course, I would save, but I would also find places to spend my savings when the money was sitting for too long.
It was not until God allowed me to be broke for literally a month, where I had no option to pay bills and buy small amounts (literally) food from the grocery store to survive. I was behind on bills because I was in between jobs and also I was spending more than my income. It was like I had an addiction that I could not stop. I was in a situation, where I was robbing Peter to pay Paul; which was not my cup of tea. I knew it was time for me to change. I could have asked others for money to help me out, but I felt that I was already in debt with others. I did not want to get in debt with my family.
My new goal was not to impress others anymore but to begin to impress myself without material possessions. I found out that many of the times I was shopping, it was reverse psychology telling me that I needed to give myself more love, peace, adventure, compassion, and trust. It was time for me to attend to my inner well-being. I traded money for Jesus because I was more fulfilled within and with others. Jesus was also teaching me how to become more responsible spiritually, emotionally, mentally, physically, and financial.
By praying and pressing my way through his convictions upon my life. It was time for me to finally began cutting back on expenses like hairstyles, fast food, and buying large amounts of clothing that I end up giving away every year. I ended up adapting to the DIY lifestyles, which also allowed me to recognize the talents I slept on. In order, for me to appreciate the money I was earning, I needed to first appreciate the person I truly was. I began asking myself how I envisioned my life and was my actions reflecting my vision for myself?
I also began to believe and began to understand the concept that “God is our provider”. In that situation of being broke for month reassured me how much of provider God was. Though, my bank account was close to the negative and sometimes it did get there. I know he made sure that all my needs were met, in which there was food on the table, clothes on my back, gas in my car, and my rent was paid. That situation was very uncomfortable and unbearable for me, but it was necessary to deliver me from the fear of lack and loss. That situation was meant to help me recognize that God was my provider and I had nothing to fear. Make sure you Honor the Lord and not your money because
“I asked the Lord for help, and he saved me from all my fears. Keep your eyes on the Lord! You will shine like the sun and never blush with shame. I was a nobody, but I prayed, and the Lord saved me from all my troubles. If you honor the Lord, his angel will protect you. Discover for yourself that the Lord is kind. Come to him for protection, and you will be glad. Honor the Lord! You are his special people. No one who honors the Lord will ever be in need. Young lions may go hungry or even starve, but if you trust the Lord, you will never miss out on anything good. Come, my children, listen as I teach you to respect the Lord. Do you want to live and enjoy a long life? Then don’t say cruel things and don’t tell lies. Do good instead of evil and try to live at peace.” –Psalms 34 1-14 (CEV)
The Love of God is a true investment with a guaranteed warranty and money is an investment that leaves you with limited access to your life, in which you can only get so far spiritually and some cases physically also. Be encouraged to deal with your own fear of lack and loss in your life. This is no better way to appreciate the perfect gift in front of you (Present moment) than trusting in God that all of your needs and wants will be met. Remember all you have to do is believe and your thoughts will manifest into reality.